It is a typical summer in Oklahoma. Once it heats up, it usually stays steadily hot and humid for months to come.
I get weak, then I feel better. Until I get weak again.
This seems to be the pattern of my days. When I'm feeling stronger, I think to myself: Maybe that's the end of the weakness.
But I'd be fooling myself with such a thought.
From the information I've been gleaning online, it is a slow and arduous process to get completely well.
I think one reason I'm so tired is that Abi wakes me up every hour or so and wants out. And has been doing this for months now.
She does not have a urinary infection. So we don't know what is compelling her to do this.
However I looked up the cough medication (pills) they gave me for her last Monday, and it said that a side effect is more frequent urination.
So now she does have a good reason.
When I can't put her off any longer, I let them out.
Then, in the wee hours, I stand at the patio door while they're out on the patio. You see if Abi goes out, Charlie wants out too.
I will often lay my head on my folded arms and lean on that yellow pantry by the door until they want back in. Because I'm so tired I can hardly hold my head up.
Then I wake up tired in the morning.
The other night I laid awake and couldn't stop scratching my scalp. I don't have sores anywhere but inside my mouth. But I itch.
So right now what I have in my direct sights is just to get through the day.
Take care of the pupsters. Water the patio plants. And shower.
This too shall pass.
I do very much appreciate all your suggestions and kind thoughts!
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